Breathing fast, dripping sweat
Nothing and yet all I regret
It may come suddenly or perhaps a build up of time
How can I prepare for this burst of doubt?
Closer one step may get me
My unclear future I cannot see
A burst of energy for times of need
how long will it work to my plead
Another solution must be made
to trick myself into feeling sane
to gain control of this physical reaction
this mental penetration
It is in fact an allusion...or is it?
It is experienced. So it is real
my body calling for a pause
but I can continue on
I move like a snail but are in fact on full speed
It is up to me to break the streak
to turn it around
to make it less bleak
Getting threw each stroke when they appear
Not worrying about the next strike before the time is near