Father, You are great and calmed my distraught soul,
I blindly lost sight of You and gave in to an unrighteous righteous anger oh God.
I let satan get the best of me,
Lord I know I was honest in my utterings,
Yet I was struck down and accused for a falsehood I did not commit.
But oh God as I was struck down I flailed about in a sinful fashion and allowed anger to consume me,
Yet You passed through my anger and spoke,
Not with words but in spirit, and showed me myself, and my falling away,
My breaking, no allowing myself to break under persecution,
I mourn for my soul Lord for which I have tainted,
Yet You deign to make me clean again.
Lord forgive me and help me stand strong through this persecution.
For though at first I committed no falsehood,
I fell in the trap of accusation, and though I knew my pleas would never pierce their hearts I didn’t stop,
Rather I grew louder and more shameful in my defense,
Making the guiltless guilty,
All I wanted in that moment was love and understanding, forgetting that You love me and know my heart and the truth oh Lord.
Yet I forsook You and tried to make man think me righteous,
And left Your love,
In the dust You created me from.
But oh Lord, You are love.
Forgive me Lord and though I am being separated from You,
You are never separate from me.
Thank You God,
And help me stand strong through tribulation.
Make me as gold through the flames,
And though the world comes against me and I sometimes long to be a part of it,
I am separate for a purpose that You have for me, a hope for me to look to, and a future for me to live up to.
Lord I love You and I praise You,