anger
anger
a word created to be bold
in ALL capital letters
however
anger does not create big things
it destroys small things
it destroys beauty
it destroys kindness
it destroys the vulnerable
and yet
i am angry
so angry
angry at the adults that have chosen for me
angry at the children for not fighting back
angry at the males for degrading us
angry at the females for never sticking together
anger will be the thing that destroys me
it will burn my heart out
and turn my soul to bitter rock
anger will eat away my insides
leaving nothing left
nothing
nothing to give to others
nothing to take for me
nothing
and yet
i am angry
so angry
angry at the rest of the world for misjudging us
angry at the United States for proving them right
angry at my parents for controlling me
angry at myself for following along
i have tried to let the anger go
my god how i tried
i have counted to fifteen
13
14
15
…
no
still angry
i have tried to talk about it
…
(why doesn’t anyone listen?)
…
no
even angrier
so now i keep it to myself
i bottle it up
and i
and i
i
i let it
let the anger burn my heart out
let the anger turn my soul to bitter rock
let the anger eat away my insides
let the anger destroy me
i will drink the poison
cause it never was about the other person dying