This lie has become a part of me,

I act it every single day,

Smiling and laughing,

And pretending everything’s okay.

I don’t understand…

What’s wrong with me?

No matter how hard I try,

Why can I never be happy?

The thoughts of death,

They cloud my mind,

I can’t leave my past behind.

I’m surrounded by people,

Yet not a single person knows,

I’ve gotten good at this,

My emotion never shows.

I can’t let go of this pain, no matter what I can’t forget.

Pill after pill…am I normal yet?