I realize now it was probably a bad decision.
There was no plan.
We were just living in the moment.
Exploring new terrain, well new to us.
The first time we winged it, without meaning to
And nothing happened,
But we got big heads and thought
“well since nothing happened the first time…”
But we were dumb… threw caution to the wind
We were caught up in the fun, then it happened.
Our worst nightmare,
you slipped up, but you didn't tell me
I realized later that night that something was off,
Something didn't feel right…
Then you told me about your grave mistake
I was numb, calm? upset.
I couldn't hate you though. Lord knows I wanted to
But, for some strange reason I couldn't forget about the times when you had to deal with my flaws, or errors
It just, this- this is so much bigger than us and you we're going to do it alone
We had to get together and buy time enough for our backup plan
An actual method this time.
There were just so many last minutes and miscommunications
You placed the responsibility all in my hands
Ya know I thought for a second “what if…” that's when I realized that I had to otherwise my life would be ruined
It kinda sounds bad but that's how life works
One time & it was killed
Life returns only more careful… less cumbersome
I'm changed and I can't truly trust you every again, so
Let's find some protection to avoid having to choose plan B