I can't set aside the jokers

part of the deck

part of the crew

I wanted them

You wanted me

I, too, 

dealer

I loved the laughter

discarded sadness

Summertime lonliness

 I can't pay

A thousand dollars to run from you

How expensive is your absence?

it takes everything

costs me everything

What will I have

when no breath, 

Solace, 

Or peace of mind visit

empty lake houses?

 

I'd walk in 

vacant rooms

What we used to be

Layered on the walls with

Lya's crayons.

 

Remember when we came home and you

undressed me

in front of that

Window

I stood so undying

Refusing to recede

Straying to shadows

You took my arms

Gathered handfuls of my hair

Set me free

Walked home while standing still. 

Half hour passes and I'm in 

Lewistown.

The walk home unveiled myself

so naked and alone

 

Where are you Jake

I can't

I can't find

I can't locate my missing piece. 

Ny Batteri

you sang me to conciousness, 

Sang me awake

Spooning Blindly

You fell in love with a monster

That drank blood and iced coffee

And loved the world

oh so well.