Sometimes you just have to pick yourself up
again
you have to stop listening to pearl jam
and not drink so much maybe,
for now.
You have to get up in the mornings, and when you want to cry
you try some yoga instead.
I know you feel like a housewife in a midlife crisis,
but you still have no one to come home to, just
yourself.
So keep yourself alive, those days (weeks, months)
that you don't want to. You're it. There is no one else. Only you.
For now.
You watch your veins swell with alcohol and you think
once I knew a different way.
A way to escape. Different, but not better.
Soon you will have to realize

there is no where at all
that you don't want to escape from.

So just be.
Be.