Sitting alone at lunch, alone in school, alone on the bus, alone at home. Abandoned.
Then you came in, made this song a duet.
But this song turned from a chorus of love to a melody of screaming.
Fight after fight night after night all we would do is argue.
But we would always make up
We would always make up an excuse to stay together
Always make up a reason to stay.
Because I love you, we would say.
Until you hurt me.
Not physically because I had already done that to myself, until you couldn't tell my veins from my scars.
But emotionally until you couldn't tell my laughs of joy from my screams of fear.

Then the future came.
I wanted to stay at home where I had a secure future, you wanted to move across the country, just for a potential job.
There was nothing back at home for me, I told myself.
I should do this for you
Because I love you.
So we left one life behind for the next, this time though I wasn't alone.
I had you next to me the whole through but with each cut with each bruise the distance between "I love you" And "I need you" grew smaller and smaller.
Because I love you I never thought about leaving you
Because I need you I couldn't imagine leaving you.
The job didn't work out, and neither did we.
This was the life we're stuck in, like a bird in an open cage, too afraid to fly away because we'd rather look beside us when we sleep and see a monster than see an entire world ready to explore.