(5) Freestyle #5 Beyond Faded 02.26.2024 @ 11:53am
I’m high once again, sticky cannabis.
I rolled me a spliff, I smoked that shit.
Time for another line, I said rack up another line.
Not before I break the seal off this full pint.
Meanwhile I play criss cross with my prescriptions.
Not thinking of what will come from this decision.
I still hear the echos of cocaine calling out my name.
I miss the sudden send off sensation, being tamed.
Being lazer focused, everything’s right.
Feeling so worthy, I love this new high.
I don’t ever want to come down, till I die.
I’m a hopeless drug addict, why would I deny?
I’m so high, I can’t even contemplate.
Drunk out of my mind, filled with hate.
Loaded until I can no longer see straight.
Shoulders weak from excessive weight.
Burning away the stress with laced bowls.
Higher than God, that’s the fucken goal.
Smoking myself blind till I can’t see anymore.
My head’s spinning, I might just fall on the floor.
Here I sit, hitting my bong.
Listening to my old Wiz Khalifa songs.
Wondering what it is I’m doing with my life.
Will I ever get it together and stop getting high?
I’m racking up lost time and regret.
I need a cigarette, I just want to forget;
The pain and the misery I went through.
I just want to have a good time and heal too.