Hi, my name is Faith.

I am a 4.0 student

I went home today, and my mother asked me

how school was.

Hi, my name is Faith

I got two hours of sleep last night and every night before that doing school work.

I woke up and my father told me how proud he was of my grades.

Hi, my name is Faith.

After school today, I studied so hard and long

I forgot to eat dinner and I almost forgot to sleep.

Hi, my name is Faith

I didn’t turn in an assignment online on time,

So my teacher emailed my mother.

My mother called me up and told me,

“Am I supposed to tell them that my daughter is a fuck up?!”

Hi, My name is 4.0

My name is 4.0

and I went to class today and I answered every question asked, correctly!

But the other students clicked their teeth at me and rolled their eyes

“It must be so easy being her,” they whispered

Hi, my name is 4.0

Most days I want to curl up into a ball on my bed and not move,

or think, or even breathe

Some days, I do just that,

listening to my mother tell me I should be doing work, unmoving

Hi, my name is 4.0

All of my time spent isolated behind a stack of papers leaves me socially inept

Leaves me struggling to meet the social expectations of my peers and other adults


It leaves me vulnerable in social situations, where sometimes it just too loud, I can hear the hoard of people laughing and talking thundering in my ears and person after person brushes my shoulder or touches my hand and I can feel the weight of their touches crushing me and the thunder and I CAN’T BREATHE!

Hi, my name is 4.0

I experienced an immense emotional trauma

that I don’t understand how to deal with

Sometimes certain things trigger the memory of my paralyzing fear holding me in place, and the smell and, hands, AND

So I do the only thing I know how to do

I work

Hi, my name is 4.0

Sometimes, I get this tight feeling of anxiousness in my stomach

that makes me want to scream

And the only way to get rid of it is if I tap my finger in threes (one two three, one two three, one two three) or walk to the count of threes (one two three, one two three, one two three) [demonstrate]

I told my mother and she brushed me off, and asked me how my grades were

Hi, my name is 4.0

I am not a human with feelings and insecurities

I am nothing but a number for my parents to show off

I am a brain with a constant thirst for validation

With no other real motivation

Than to get a pat on the back

As I try desperately to keep my head above water

With the voice in my head tempting me to just let myself drown



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Amazing. I totally feel where you are coming from. So much pressure from outside forces, but also yourself. Hang in. Get rest. You will do great things.


You are going to be fine I believe in you. I have a friend going through the same things and I help her through it. Try to find someone who is there for you no matter what. I know I'm there for my friend Faith even if I'm busy, yes you 2 hve the same name. I push the other things to the side and give her my full attention even though i'm pressured. I try to be there for her and if not the next time I come in contact with her. No worries look for someone to help, there's always someone I know cause I'm that someone. Watch some beautiful animations on youtube or relaxing ones. Take it easy too, doesn't matter what they say. It'll be hard but it will soon pass over once you start doing you. Remember who you are matters.












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