4 in and 4 out
When you tell me I’m just overthinking—
Or I need to stop worrying
You aren’t looking closely enough
You do not understand that when I walk into a room—
I feel all eyes on me.
You do not understand that talking in front of the class
Makes my whole-body freeze.
You do not understand that when I’m in the back of the room-
Quiet as can be- my mind is panicking.
You do not understand that I’m only chugging down coffee
Because I lost sleep last night-
Due to countless panic attacks.
You do not understand that I’m only procrastinating
Because I’m too worried I won’t have enough
Time to perfect all my work.
When you tell me I’m just overthinking-
Or I need to stop worrying-
You do not understand the mess,
Called my mind.