10 Lightning Strikes

Where I come from is Pain

A pain I always have to cover.

I cover my pain with smiles and laughter.

So, what is pain?

Pain is a sereis of lightning storms that don't go away

these storms,

they stay in your heart forever.

Where I come from, there are afew lightning strikes

okay,

more than afew.

The first time the lightning struck, my heart froze. 

The 1st lightning strike--

Daddy, Daddy,

Daddy hit Mommy.

The 2nd lightning strike--

Mommy and my brother

and I

left ~ nowhere to go

Where I come from, there was nowhere to go but up.

So we did

And there, again, was lightning.

The 3rd lighting strike--

A new Daddy, this Daddy,

was different, scary, like the first, but, different.

The 4th lightning strike--

"Daddy" hit me

The 5th lightning strike--

"Daddy", "Daddy",

"Daddy" TOUCHED me.

They asked me questions, the school did.

But, all I did 

was smile. 

I laughed.

I said no.

My smiles and laughter hid my pain.

How could I tell?

Lightning strikes again--

"Daddy" found out they asked.

He said he's hurt me.

So

I smiled and laughed

I covered up the fear. 

The 6th lightning strike--

Mommy, "Daddy" hurt me.

He lied, he said he didn't.

When he took me to the store that day "Daddy" told me somthing.

That's when the 7th lightning strike hit my heart--

"You'll never amount to anything, all you're good for is sex."

I was 5, what was this suppoused to mean?

"Daddy" hit me.

Where I come from I will never be anything.

Lightning struck again--

I became something 

A foster child 

They, they took me from Mommy

My brother and I,

We got a new "Mommy"

"Mommy" was mean, hateful, demeaning

9 months later I could go home.

But,

In those 9 months I grew up

I became Mommy.

I was Mommy to myself and to my brother.

But, when I went home,

we left my "Daddy" and 

Mommy was my Mommy.

Life was okay.

Until lightning struck again--

We lived alone in a little place

Where the McFarland Boys roamed, and,

it was scary.

When the lightning struck the 9th time--

My brother was in the hospital

I felt alone, and smiled, and was...happy..

And he came home and I really was happy.

The storm subsided.

Until, one day,

Daddy came back

And the lightning struck for the final time--

The final time the lightning struck, my heart froze.

He told me he never wanted to see me again.

Just afew weeks ago, the lightning struck.

But, i still feel the pain.

I still smile, I laugh, I am happy.

Where I come from,

I cover the pain,

I avoid lightning,

I smile.

 

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Comments

iyanna_ziear

Wow, this is powerful.

fdarnell97

Thanks :) It felt good to get it out. 

 

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