Falling into the Veleno
Location
She was new
Different
The strange feeling in the pit of my stomach
I’ll never forget
But how could I let myself fall for someone
That no one would understand
So I let myself write it all down
I let every emotion loose on that flimsy piece of college-ruled paper
And I try my best to forget.
She was poison
But of course I didn’t know it
My mind was tricked into believing
Believing she was the air I needed to breathe
Thinking if she were gone
I would be too
So I let myself write it all down
I write for hours about her hair, her eyes, her smile, and her laugh
And I try my best to forget
Her poison seeps through me
Through my brain, my heart and my veins
I’m not myself
This isn’t me
How did I let years go by in this prison?
How could I let myself be fooled?
Never mind that.
I will write.
For an hour and half
My mind no longer thinks of the complications of my world
Instead I seep into a new world
A better world
Every ounce of my soul is poured onto a thirteen-inch computer screen
For that hour and thirty minutes
My heart is content
My mind is soft
And I am ok.
Everything is ok.