lukewarm

I wish not to be lukewarm any longer 

i wish to be fluid as can be 

i wish to be as clear or as blue as the waters on the beach 

I wish not to feed into lust to temptation

i wish to be as clear or as beautiful as the ocean

i wish to be free of all things not like the ocean i wish to be as fluid and not cold not hot but not lukewarm

i want to move as freely as the water does i want to be as graceful as he is

I want to be as calming as the sound of the waves hitting the shore

I want to be that peace that he brings

I need it

I need to be as calming as the ocean 

I need to be lukewarm no longer

But what does that leave? does that leave a interning feeling of emptiness? 

Does tat leave  ellington of i should have or i could have?

no it will leave me to feel as if i have been reborn in the body of the ocean 

t will leave me to feel that all of the things i nice feared are gone within the waves

it will leave me to feel hat i a whole, i am here, i am free

I wish not to be lukewarm any longer