The Shadowman
I’m the beggar at the Shadowman's front doorstep
Scratching my wooden framed skin
Ash dreams roll dice for a favor
I want to change the moment
I didn’t walk away from our relationship
As he slipped through until it was dark
Split so I saw four of him at once
The smooth hands of abuse
The words cradled in cuts
Made me live so hard I was dead
He said
“I don’t think you’ll get better”
After almost killing myself
His words held me down
In a room without walls for the watching
Expensively auctioned my malnourished body after he was finished
And I learned that just because you love a boy with everything
Doesn’t mean he’ll love you with anything back
It was the softest punch a man could give
So I went to the Shadowman's front door
To give me back the shadow he never could