Dont tell me
Don’t tell me that I’m beautiful until
you’ve seen the marks etched in my skin;
the scars I have on the inside and
on my heart that I hide.
Don’t tell me I’m strong until
You’ve seen me break down,
Fall apart time and time again;
Crying until the tears fall no more.
Don’t tell me that I’m a wonderful person until
I’ve shut you out completely;
Until I push you away because I promised myself that you’re just like the rest;
Because I promised myself that you will get tired of me too.
Don’t tell me that I’m adorable until
You’ve seen what night are like,
the nightmares that scare me, until
You’ve seen me sob, tremble, scream and collapse in terror.
Don’t tell me I’m brave until
You’ve seen me take down my fake smile and tell you what's really wrong,
Until you’ve heard my background,
Until you’ve heard my past.
Don’t tell me I’m smart until
You’ve seen how many hours a night I study for one class;
All so I can pass that one quiz that probably doesn't really affect my grade,
But only to fail the real test, the real deal that will affect my grade.
Until you’ve seen the numerous tears roll down my face in frustration.
Don’t tell me I’m adored until
You’ve seen the scars down my back from the daggers.
Until you’ve seen all the situations I’ve been abandoned in.
Until you’ve been there when they tell me its all my fault.
Don’t tell I’m loved until
You see what I go through on the daily,
Until you know my emotional breakdowns,
Until you are there to stay!
Don't tell me I’m passionate until
You have seen me do a dance over and over
Until you have seen me fall off the horse time and time again
Until you see me hurt my self, get back up, and do it again.
Don’t tell me I’m special until
You have seen the person I was.
Until you see the memories locked in my head.
Until you see things no one has ever seen.
Don’t tell me I’m lucky until
You have seen the life I’ve lived
Until you’ve seen the kid I raised my brother into.
Until you’ve seen the abandonment in my past.
Don’t tell me…