I’m Still On That Steep Slope
I know you have it worse off than I-
But the thing about art is that this doesn’t matter-
The pureness of emotion and loss-
It is universal, at least when done right-
I know my backstory isn’t as sad as many others-
But I am not a weakling- I’ve suffered, I shan’t lie.
Still, you are a part of what saved me.
Mama said I should write you a letter-
Stating that fact in a spiritual context-
I scoffed at the notion as I thought you’d scoff at my letter.
But seeing you now-
It was cathartic and empowering
Just as your origin for me
Everything has come full circle, my sweet, sweet love.
My life still has trials-
My medicine and pills are killing me, or so it seems-
Seeing you contorting and cowering
Seeing the convulsions and crying-
It was all to similar.
And this is still healing for me-
I thought my wounds had healed
I figured all of this had left me
This is not the case
When I heard those notes calling to God-
Crawling towards heaven-
You re-opened my skin and left me exposed-
All in front of the light and wind-
And then the moment of Triumph
I faced the arrows with you beside me-
My sweet, sweet love.