home/you
because i love you,
i see ultraviolet whenever i close my eyes.
i see my shadow, my reflection in the mirror,
and i am no longer afraid.
because i love you,
i look at the world and i feel safe,
hopeful, alive, and so existing,
so present.
because i love you,
my skin finally fits
and doesn't bunch around
my ankles or squeeze around my
ribs until it becomes too
hard to breathe.
before i met you,
there was this noise
inside of my head,
this noise was everyone else
around me telling me who to be,
where to go, what to do,
to keep looking down.
but you,
god, you, you, you, you.
You.
i love you because
whenever you call my name, and
whenever i hear your laughter, and
whenever i look at you,
you silence that noise.
you made me look up.
you unblinded me.
you made me see.
you never made me feel wrong
about who i was,
or who i am,
or who i am yet to be.
i love you because
i am enough for you.
maybe even more.
and you never gave up on me,
even when i gave up on myself.
because i love you,
i love me, too
and i dont know how
i could ever love you enough
for teaching me how to.