You have done some things

Some things that you will never be able to take back

You have said some things

Some things that made me look at you in a different light for a period of time

You have hurt the people you love

You have made them feel like they belong in the dirt on more than one occasion

 

You have done many things that I know you regret

I know you regret pinning me against the floor and screaming in my face when I was 5

I know you regret treating my mom like garbage when you didn’t get your way

I know you regret letting the demons inside of you control how we lived

I know that you hated that our family always lived in fear

Fear of saying the wrong thing and making you go on a rampage

 

All of this being said, I know you did not want any of this to happen

I know you wanted to be free of those demons making you act in these ways

They had so much control over your mind, though, that you could not express this desire to us

All you could do was explode, hoping that, somehow, we would hear your cry for help

 

But, because I love you, I don’t see these things when I look at who you are today

I don’t see the old you who would explode at the drop of a pin

Because I love you, I see your kind and compassionate spirit before I see your past struggles

Because I love you, it was easy to forgive you, even though I still have lasting effects from how badly you treated us

Because I love you, I don’t look at you in a bad way when your demons try to return

Those demons don’t stand a chance now