Monachopsis
I was the phoenix that rose through the fire and never knew
when
to
stop
picking up dead pieces of whatever that was and repeatedly trying to put them back together to protect from insanity but failing.
I was the river who aspired to be an ocean so I beat the rocks with all my power and
never
wanted
to
stop
Beating myself down and clouding my judgement failing to see it was not the rocks that were eroding
it was me.
I was the tree who wanted to grow to be the tallest in the forest and
never
wanted
to
stop
Dreaming and neglecting the logic that once I am the tallest there would be no more shade for my prematurity to hide
Once all of my toxic persistence beat me within an inch of no return
the moment came when i finally realized my worth
I AM the Pheonix that rises through the ashes
NEVER
GOING
TO
STOP
Getting back up agian and agian mourning the broken heart and defeat but soaring above it
I AM the river though narrow longer than I can conceive
NEVER
GOING
TO
STOP
lapping the shores softly providing nourishment for the ones around me
I AM the tree wanting to grow and knowing I will but takes my time
swaying in the shade of the ones who have come before me
anticipating my time of success where I can be that for the future ones
I AM
the mother
the pheonix
the daughter
the river
the sister
the trees
the wife
the breeze
I AM
the unforgettable past my journey started on
the optimism held before my present
and the nutured future that
will
never
stop.