Love and War
Love and War
As the blood drips on the floor
I am wondering whether there is a cure
To this feeling that creeps inside of me
Like a ghostly figure on Halloween,
Fighting for my life
Like soldiers fighting for their country,
Intimidated by the lights
And their brightness,
Accustomed to the blackness
That holds me
And the blueness
That keeps choosing me,
Love,
The color of a newly shined apple,
Sometimes it may shine
Sometimes it may not spark at all
When you lose that spark
You lose it all,
Falling hard,
Falling hard
Hard against the concrete
Feeling the pain
As it turns you
From the inside out,
As you begin to doubt yourself
You begin to lose yourself
Losing everything that you have wished for,
Ever since I was four
I have wished for a life that was so much more
I have wished for positivity
For dignity
But all I receive is negativity,
Put in an addition sign
All you receive back is a subtraction sign,
A flash toward the present,
Just when you think
You are making progress
You actually are not,
You are drowning in deep water
And you continue to drown
Until another person finds a boat,
That person being someone
Who you love the most
Who will end up living
In another city
Far away,
Distance,
Distance is like flying
Impossible but possible
At the same time,
Crying and crying
Everytime I think about it
It transforms me to a stone
Unable to move
For fear of what I’ll have to prove,
It is love and war
Something that cannot be solved
Hoping that in the end
That it is able to be solved
And somehow this will all dissolve