Dear God,
     I'm writing this letter to you to clear my mind. It's a lot of things I don't understand in this world you created. I'm having a hard time dealing with love. Why does love hurt so much I never felt a unspeakable feeling before? Why does my heart hurt every time my love one says something I don't like? Is it me god ? Am I doing something wrong. I can't understand why people can't love me the way I love them. I'm not that bad of a person I just love hard. I love hard to the point where I push them away. I can't help that I love this way. I just want love in return. Why can't I get love in return lord god? I always get my heartbroken into the mist of my tears running down my face. Everyday I cry at night wondering, why? Why can't I be the one you love ? I've been threw so many ups & downs in my life I just wanna find a happy place to escape to. Maybe heaven where you might be a nice place to go to after all. I just wanna get away from all my heart aches . I wanna be in love god ! I wanna be inlove with my one & only first love. That's all I want god. But he dosnet love me anymore , how do I deal with that? How will I ever move on? They say pray about but a prayer won't stop my tears & heart aches at night lord god! I just ask you to help me get threw whatever I'm going threw .

                                 Love, Deja