Begging. For. A. Chance.
All I need is a chance.
A chance to answer your questions-
After I’ve given you the context
Before you force out what you want to hear
After you understand where I’m coming from
Before you jump to conclusions, but
I don’t have time to go back and forth
Because
You already
Made your judgements
Even before
The answers
Left my
Mouth
I’m
Gasping
For
Air
Because
I forgot to breathe
In my hurry to
Tell you the truth
Before you
Made it up
Yourself
I am late.
I never
Got the chance
To express myself
Nor redeem myself.
I am weak.
And now
I’m still
Gasping
In
Between
Sobs
As I try
To come
To terms
With the reality
But my mom
Wipes my tears
And my dad
Holds me close
And my friend
Tells me a joke
And my teacher
Smiles at my work
And my neighbor
Let me babysit
Because
They know
That I am
Smart. Beautiful. Kind.
And I know
That I am
Learning. Trying. Smiling
And you should know
That you are not important to me
Anymore.
Because
There are others
Who have given me the chance
The chance I begged for
The chance I deserve
The chance to be who I am
To embrace myself
To prepare myself
For those like you
Who manage to turn a blind eye against the sun
Who manage to overlook a person’s significance for
The sake of your own superiority
Who stimulate so much fear, so much hate
That I would have drowned in my tears
Gasping for air but finding only
A venomous atmosphere to intake
Had it not been for the others
The others
When gasping for air
They pulled me out, lifted me up
I stood up on my feet
I am strong.
Stronger than I thought I could be.
The tears dried. My vision cleared.
I am rising.
Rising past the depths of the ocean
Up into the clouds of my dreams
I see you, pointing at me
I hear you, criticizing me
But I am beyond your reach.
I am gasping.
Gasping for air
Because
I am climbing the steepest mountain
So quickly
The air is thinner here
I am out of breath, smiling
Because
The view below is beautiful
I know you are there
Invisible from above
Because
You are small.
Insignificant.
I am gasping for air
Because
I am surrounded by laughter
Mom Dad Friend Teacher Neighbor
Celebrating my stride
To the top
When given the chance
Because
That’s all I ever needed.
A chance-
The chance.