I was always there " WAS " there is no " was "I am still here for you && when I'm crying around midnight close to 1 Everyone seems to disappear It's like we're not even here anymoreI'm tired of all of these pep talks They're killing me My mind is deteriorating faster than it should beGood thing my will in God is strongOther than that I can't think of where I would be I miss church I ache happiness I yearn for consolement not just for someone to keep it real with me I can't take anymore accusations without cracking So while I deal with a cracked soul && pray for healing I ask one thing of youBefore you go to whack my ego reflect back to my end That would be gracious