As I lay here contemplating my next strategy I look back at my life and what you’ve done to me My mind, my body, heart & soul you devoured You gained all control and exercised your divine power Your strength and your games always mesmerized me The Woman I met is gone, vanished, and I question to myself, who is she? This being that lies in the comfort of my bed Whose words, lies and games run through my head. I let you in my zone and gave you all trust Broke down barriers within my walls but all you saw was nothing, and my eyes you did lust From the day you are born you exit your mother’s womb You lose all tranquility You enter a domain you don’t know And as a child you learn, fight. Love and grow Until now I was able to fight off all desires But one night I let you put out my fire The burning, the needing was to much for me to handle I entered you as we lit that last candle Now I am trapped in a pool of emotions that haunt me day and night 3 kids, the so called love, trying to stay positive with all my might You possessed me, obsessed me and would not let go As Lauryn Hill sung “I kept letting you back in.” and the heights we’ve reached seem now more than ever, so low Tears cannot explain, my undeserved pain, that fills, spills into the black hole of my very soul But I have the light of Jesus Christ shining in my dark-stained life and now I am truly whole Man or Woman does not control me God purchased my destiny at Calvary That’s why I look up and smile with confidence; I know that He is with me Those silent tears, the lonely nights, recall the arguing and unnecessary fights When I left you alone, somehow you’d find a phone and found a way to make it right It’s over now and I’ll miss you, though there will never be a happy family I thank God that on this broken road I trod, I’ve found happiness in him indeed! Copyright® JCF 2012