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I see my life like a fountain pen in an inconsistant hand.

Words strewn about on a white sheet of paper.

Ink drawn through the words because we can't erase.

 

Frolicing and cartwheels performed in possibility.

Revel in deception because it tastes so sweet. 

The lies on my ears are chamomile as they justify my stupidity.

Though I'm not blind to the error in this logic.

Ink drawn throught the words because we can't erase.

 

I'll let it captivate me. Just a little, just today.

I've been on great behavior, maybe fate is in my favor.

Dangerous endeavor.

I'll dabble in the idea...Alright I'll waltz with Satan, he just asked me for one dance.

I put my fingers to his palm, responding to his devious advance. 

Ink drawn throught the words because we can't erase.

 

When the moment is over, and I sober up from this drunken haze of sin,

The grass is speckled with water droplets yet the sun still hasn't risen.

As I climb over my window seal, I feel my mind becoming a prison.

Do you realize what you're doing?

Do you realize whats at stake?

Do you realize you can't take that back? It's already too late!

Ink drawn through the words because we can't erase.

 

Now I'm back at square one. 

I'm stuck inside of what I've done.

I don't need repremandation. Please, I'm drowning in remorse.

I thought I was free, but apparently my flesh still has an iron grip on me.

My Lord told me I'll be okay.

We all make mistakes.

Ink drawn through the words because we can't erase.

 

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