They That Question
My heart in my throat,
I can barely breathe.
Alone in this room,
Three dark figures,
Folded up in chairs.
A finger under my chin,
Turns my face to theirs,
I know what they want,
But I won't tell them that.
Not now, not yet.
Slowly they open me.
Out of my mouth,
Come words of thoughts,
Carefully considered.
They see in smart,
They see my wall,
I give them just enough,
To think they're though.
My mind whirls,
Persistence abound,
I speak no lie.
They ask what they,
Will find in a while,
Why ask that?
To see if I lie,
I promise I don't,
But then,
How can you,
Trust that?
My chest is flushed,
My heart is furious,
They watch me like prey,
Fear is swallowing me whole.
My face speaks innocence,
My posture says confidence.
How can you look for a fault?
If you're looking,
It's going to be there.
Two weeks, they said.
Then I'd know,
If my life was turning.
I've lost a love,
I won't trust again.
No one must know,
No one must hear my years.
Despair wraps me,
In a cloak of shadow,
All to be seen,
Is that fake smile.
I didn't tell a lie,
I said what they wanted.
Stop your search,
Where your curiosity begins.
I didn't tell a lie,
I just didn't tell the truth.