Title Revealed at the End
Title Revealed at the End
Shaianna Edwards
You made me, but you left me You left a never ending trail of tears
You left a broken heart
You left unanswered questions
You gave me a life but took half of it back
You lied to me
Told me you would be there for me when there is a problem
But somehow, when you are the problem you disappear
I do not forgive you for letting a beautiful rose wilt
Wilt so much that it is like a dried daisy
I do not forgive you for allowing a mind of creativity to go to waste
Not because of laziness
But because you did not notice or acknowledge my talent
My mind was focused on recreating a pathway to your heart
No time to express my artistic ways because I had to fix things with you
You focused on personal success and ended up a personal failure
You quit a challenging job before it even became an obstacle
You let the opportunity go away
You came back ten years later
You revealed that the rose no longer had much significance to you
You longed for the rose, but the closer you got the more it moved away
You did things to portray that you wanted to be around
But you did not stick to them
Forgiveness is the key to our family relationship
I have forgiven you
But I regret the life you have forced on me
It could have been better
You were my father
I say the word “were” because my entire perspective has changed
You leave unanswered questions that I want answered by you
There is no closure
The wilting rose cannot be mended without your help
I still cry out to you
I still call your name
Hopelessly wishing that one day you would hear me
Telling my heart that you would come back to me
My heart wants to accept it
My mind only rejects it
In fear that we would create a bond that would be destroyed once again
By giving up on raising me
You left a long lasting burn
Eating away at my skin
Significant to the way dying petals fall off a rose
Sometimes I wonder how I am still here
Still waiting for you to come back
YOU WERE MY FATHER...