Not My Mistake
I slipe into the car and a threatening silence overcomes me within my head i think "How can we be so close yet so far" As i try to touch you i feel nothing Not the fat in your cheeks or the soffness of your hair I turn to look at you and our eyes never meet If they did the emptyness would make me weep The first cry the first sound you sinked Septemeber came quicker then you would think And you were stuck with me Now i come back to this moment This routine The words you speak wound me And silent tears create oceans and seas In my mind i scream and then the doubts begin to sicken me Who are we? How do i start a coversations with this man? Are the words i speak so bland? And if they are just give me a chance The car pulls up and i feel distraught reaching for your hand I tremble "Please forgive me dad" But i'm letting go of this past And if you can join me then hold my hand And if not then I Love You but these mistakes will not BE MINE