Dear Anxiety
Dear Anxiety,
No, you deserve a name.
You sit.
Curled in the corner of the room
Head down, shoulders slumped – you act as if you aren’t there
But we both know otherwise.
Every know and every then, you look up
Your blood-shot eyes like bullets,
Shooting forward with one purpose, one goal.
You walk forward, your struggling steps and shaky speech
And you override my controls.
Flicking the kill switch back and forth
Back and forth
Back and forth
You beat my heart,
Punishing its loneliness and want
For a life.
You force it, manipulate it
To work smarter,
Push harder
I wonder if it hurts you, this pain
Or when I lose, do you gain?
Dear HOME WRECKER
That sounds more fitting, right?
How do I get you to leave?
You’re a persistent agony,
Blocking my heart from my sleeve
I want you to set me free
I want to be free
To giggle and laugh and shout
Without your barging in
And pulling me back
Back to the ‘safety net’ of my bed
Back to the suffocating thoughts of my head
Back to the bottomless pit of my soul,
Backwards.
You extinguish the lone flame that accompanies my dreams,
You dredge up memories I’d rather forget
And you hold on.
Tight.
You drown me in my depression
Holding me beneath the waves
You ignore my screams for air
Ruining my body beyond repair.
I want to be free
I want to be
I want to…
I want-
I?