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All the things I wanted to say

Would not express how I feel

Im glad I didn’t love you

It was only a game

A word that just seemed right

 

You wasted a year months days hours minutes seconds

And every second I was with you I kept hoping for more

For better

And that’s not something you could give

You took

 

You have no idea how I feel

I never told you

I was afraid to embarrass you

But you never cared about embarrassing me

 

It’s funny how when the tears run down your face they hide in my eyes

Like all the things I wanted to say

They’ll never get out

 

I never told anyone

I trusted you

I knew you

Maybe I did love you

That’s something you’ll never know

Because you’ll never know me

Now your time is up

 

Why do you cry?

We both know I put so much more into this than you

Don’t be a sympathetic fuck

I don’t need your sympathy, since when do you even have any?

Apparently you don’t need my love

Good luck finding better

I know I will because better than you is someone who will care

Who will go first

Not leave me hanging

Not treat me like an item

You were a person to me but I was a boy to you

 

You told me you had to have me

It would have been nice to feel like I was needed

What you needed was a friend was a name was a fuck

That’s not me

But excuse me for wanting to be more than that

You didn’t need me

We don’t need each other

 

And you would say

“We beat the odds and found each other”

I should have known then that you were desperate to find another boy

Who liked you as a boy

But I’m more than another boy-I have a name a face a heart

You cant put that on display

 

And that’s why when I see you my heart races

It doesn’t stop

I don’t know why

You make me nervous

Because I gave you so much and you didn’t even see who I am

Who is really me

And I don’t know why

My heart doesn’t stop when it sees you

I know I gave more but that’s just who I am

I give you take

That’s who we are

That’s why I thought it worked

Until you didn’t want to take anymore

 

You made me fall over

Eyes skin disposition

What did you even see in me?

Just someone there

But I’m more than someone there

I wasn’t just there for you, I was here for you

It felt right it felt good it was fast it was slow it was hot it was sad

I don’t laugh I don’t cry I was sad I was mad I was paralyzed

Now I don’t know

But now youll never know

Because like the tears you’ll never know

These words are unspoken

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