You Ever?

Sat, 06/06/2020 - 08:28 -- AkinaD

Ever erased your desire to exist so that others can? Ever give so much til you're staring down at empty hands? Ever wish to partake in the joy and smiles but can't because you're eaten with misery for miles?

Ever dreamed with a heart so full of hope but awaken to a shitty reality where you can't breathe, you just choke? Suffocated by your need to feel whole, but in truth, no one ever noticed when you broke.

Ever been what everyone else needs with desperation in your eyes hoping someone would hear your plea? Ever been mad at God, knowing not to question Him but constantly asking "why me?"

Ever talked a friend off a ledge but only out of jealousy, secretly wishing you were dead? Ever known what it's like not to fit in anywhere except inside your head? But still choose to be silent, a closed mouth that won't get fed?

Ever hoped those you love would have all the right things to say? All the things that suddenly surface on your burial day. The things you need to have and hold before you pass away.

Ever questioned the integrity of your soul because you're filled with thoughts that remain untold? Thoughts that frighten even the toughest of men, so dark that even demons fold.

Ever been the realest surrounded by cliques so deep but fake? Ever sat back and seriously wondered how much more you could take? Ever searched for clarity on how to truly be happy? Because even in death, unattended misery lasts for an eternity.

This poem is about: 
Me

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