I cried.

I was alone.

Addicted and a mess

Honestly, I was hiding because I felt like not much of the me you knew was left.

I had changed from when we first became best friends,

I didn't let you know my struggle because our friendship was something I didn't want to see end.

Instead of make-up,

I had another mask to hide behind.

I smiled the usual smile.

and it did it's thing

but after a while I felt it sink.

And I almost broke,

I was on the brink-

but how could I tell you?

What would you think?

Don't get me wrong. Its not like I didn't trust you.

Its more like I didn't want to lose you.

I didn't want to let you in.

Because every time I pictured introducing you to who I was on the inside

you ran away from me

And I chased after you pleading "No, PLEASE don't run and hide!"

I wanted to tell you,

and there were so many times where I almost did.

But I didn't feel like chasing after you if you went and hid.

I remember that night,

When we talked on that green cot

It was like you read my mind.

Like you knew my thoughts

You let me in on things only you had known,

That touched me.

And I opened up too.

We cried.

We weren't alone.

and honestly,

my mind was blown

Our struggles were similar,

and now with them overcome.

Its just part of what makes us who we are.

the hard part is done.

Our brokenness brought us together.

Its true. yeah,

prior to this I was still close to you.

But this brought us closer.

This is our glue.

So here's to the Beautiful,

Amazing,

Wonderful,

Entertaining,

ntelligent,

Inspiring,

AWESOME,

you.

I LOVE YOU