When you committed that wrong, you wounded me.
When you didn’t apologize, you stabbed me repeatedly.
When you denied everything when confronted with that wrong, you lost my trust and my respect.
When you do something wrong and you continue to act as if you're the supreme, you're only kidding Yourself.

I feel sick when I'm near you because you're dirty in my eyes, and in the process, you dirtied me as well.
I feel sick when I'm near you because I have to pretend that you're still something to me for the
Sake of maintaining what I have.
I feel sick that I betrayed my own beliefs, my own morals to avoid what I should have done, but I can't. Because you are something to me, even if I don’t want to admit it.
I'm going to prove to you that I don't need you, that I can do perfectly fine without you, that you will come to Regret everything you did to me.

I ask myself what do others see and this is what I see.

He provokes me
Why?
Because I provoke him
Why?
Because I'm disrespectful
Why?
Because I hate him
Why?
Because he wronged me.

But is that an excuse
For the way I'm acting?

It isn't.

I tell myself I can't, I won't
But everytime I see him, I can't stop myself
Every disgust, every respite, every dissatisfaction, every sickening feeling comes up
In the end, I will be no better than you

To the person who told me to stick to my morals
I'm sorry I couldn't do it
I'm an hypocrite
Thank you for being on my side

To the person who told me to forgive
I'm sorry, I can't and I won't
To forgive, for me, means to let his wrong go
But I just can't