Woah Played Again
Honestly, i like how you played
Promising me, everything to fade away
That holds, me, back,
my doubts
My insecurities
But woah, i got played, again
I actually cared for you
Which i never do
I put faith in you,
To have it skewed
You say its to prevent future damage
But you already knew i was feeling down
Imagine this image
Mindfully sound girl telling herself you don't need a man
You don't need someone to love you
To hold you
To take care of you
All of her life
But she found something new
Someone who listened to her
And thought her through
Relieving her of this duty to only rely on herself
But of course he did what he had to do,
He made me so alone
I started to forget myself
I was so, prone
After being told i mattered, for once in my life
To feel important for a second
Cut me off so clean with the sharpest of knives
And just had to completely wreck it
After being shown that my words do matter i am back to being invisible
Yet again, i am, feeling dull
Then you come along promising me life to the full
Brim of the vase of happiness you can't possibly erase
This is what i needed after being so tired from fighting off this loneliness
So tired of convincing myself i am winning this
So tired of trying to be someone i am not,
I do care,
i care a lot,
But that leads to broken hearts and i am not
Going to sulk about these boys
So i put up a coy,
Something to feel strong
Like i do not often long
For a deeper connection
But this double personality provides the protection,
Of a broken heart
I often find myself collecting
The pieces after they use me
And i act my heart is whole
That they can not see
The pieces of me
Lying scattered, ever so gently
I must collect them in silence
I don't want the violence
My mind inflicts on me when my heart breaks
That's, why, i, fake
But oh man, you, were a big mistake
For the first time, in, my, life, i handed someone my heart
I let you rip it apart
Watched you throw it on the ground
As i drop to my knees trying to conceal the damage
I Hear a funny sound,
A small weep from my lips managed
I let you see my heart shattered
I was too tired of constantly putting it back together
I let you see my disaster
I can't put myself altogether
Anymore
I can't keep pretending for
Anyone
i am done.