Wish I Could Forget You
That you wouldn't cross my mind in the silence.
Even without any intention you creep into my head.
I wish it was easy to forget you.
To forget everything we've been through.
TO forget the memories and the pain
but I can't do that.
I smile when I think about the times we've spent together.
The inside jokes and play wrestling fights.
Those were the simpler times.
You were my best friend.
Whether it was intentional or not.
You became a major part of my life.
It wasn't just the physical attraction to you.
I was able to be myself around you.
You knew everything about me.
You knew my darkest secrets.
You were my first.
We've been through hell and back
You've heard me laugh and cry.
You were the one I could always turn to.
THe first person I wanted to share news to.
The one I would text first.
The one who meant the world to me.
If only it was the same.
It used to be so simple for us.
We liked each other, so we were together.
Then came something better.
Then I was blown away like a feather in the wind.
We stayed friends after we broke up.
Then we became more than just friends.
But you wouldn't commit anymore.
I knew I lost you forever.
You had your freedom from me and loved it.
I however was no longer free.
You had captured my heart.
Even when you gave it back, you left you mark.
It would always have you in it.
I tried to be okay without you.
Didn't work because you still meant everything to me.
I tried to protect my heart but nothing happened.
You crushed my heart over and over again.
I try to fix it but it just doesn't want to be fixed.
You don't want to be with me.
and I can't keep your attention.
You want other girls and I'm left on the side of the road.
I hope that one day you will come back.
You will realize I'm the one who's been there for you.
I've been here for three years.
When will you realize how much I do for you.
You don't even do much in return but I give you my all.
That's my mistake but you just have that effect on me.
I wish I knew why and how to prevent it.
Even when I say goodbye there is a part of me that says fight for me