Why I Live
Several years ago I lost
A part of me, Long gone
Across the sea as her dust
Floats in the summer breeze,
Now who do I believe, For
I was young and inexperienced
Knocking loudly on love's door,
But no one was hearing it, so
I'd shame myself away in silence
Not trying to express expulsive
Violence to those who knew little
Of how I felt therefore I was expulsive,
Years past as I could only asorb happiness
For the moment, but through my smile
There's despair, humiliation, and fear,
It wasnt until I reached High School
That the perfect girl entered my life,
Only bad part is it was computer
Love for awhile so times where I wanted
To physically reach out to her soul, i couldnt
Find the heart to let her know how quickly I grew
Love for her, then i grew doubts of how she's
Another girl, but she stcuk around
Talking and laughing with me countless hours
Of the day and once the relationship grew,
I thanked God for sending me an angel
And prayed he allow me to have eternal love
With her... She found love elsewhere,
My heart tarnished broken and my depression
Caved in deeper in my spirit, I started to doubt
Myself once more.. Was life a gift or given chore?
To my consternation she still found interest in me,
At every given moment she was willing to talk and
I eagerly listened which expanded my heart even more,
Yet she was still in love and I faced the mere fact
It will not change soon, but it was around Christmas
That I finally got a chance to see her, giving her a butterfly
Necklace that I wrapped around her neck after I proposed
It to her.. To see her smile was a peace of heaven.. She
Continued to love but my patience had given so I threw
In the towel, but as I gave up her relationship had salvaged
There was I to her rescue to comfort her and tell her to follow her
Heart, in which she did by finding me through
An everlasting friendship.. After a cold and cruel summer
She returned to me with open arms as well as I did
For her, from that point we connected and fell in love...
I cant and will not tell you everything, every relationship
Has its setbacks, but when the rain hits you cannot fall,
You must rise and better yourself before you can better
Others, through a time we thought we lost each other,
I dragged my broken body and soul through hell,
God gave me back the gift I felt I never get back
That is her beautiful special heart.. I will never
Stop loving her....