Why should I stay here?

why do you suddenly care?

any other time I'm not good enough

any other time I'm ready to go

I've been ready to go for far too long

but now you suddenly love me?

are you gonna miss me?

or are you gonna miss having your little dyke to belittle?

'you don't count' 'you're not valid'

and maybe at most I kind of respect you, but that's as far as it goes for me

maybe my siblings feel differently, but they didn't see your hate

they didn't see your abuse

because they were better

and you know in your mind that I'm right

because 'i love you' is a nightly reflex

a habit I can't seem to break

a lie