Someone draws the blinds,
Waking me up on this early Saturday morning.
As I squint to look around the room,
I notice a blonde haired man standing by the window
A dark bearded man to my left with his leg wrapped around me.
I try to clear my head,
Everything from last night comes in flashes
These flashes aren’t very clear,
But fuzzy and out of order.
I remember laughter, music, people smoking and drinking,
Trying to remember how I got in this bed,
Why is the man beside me not the man I love?
I start to feel guilty,
For something I can barely remember?!
I look back at the blonde man,
I’m leaning over him and we’re kissing,
Oh, what have I done?!
Why did I let this happen?
Did things get too far?
Why can’t I remember everything?
Why couldn’t I be faithful to the one who is waiting for me at home?
Is the question I still ask myself to this day.