Drugs and suicide are burning in my brain

it's making me go absolutely insane

my previous addiction keeps trying to drag me back in

telling me god doesn't love me since I've already made the sin

The demons telling me one more hit

"remember you won't feel shit"

feeling the pressure in my chest 

I have a devil and angel on my shoulders fighting their best

Its like theyre playing tug of war

Not sure which I want more.

My life i thought was going pretty great

but still seems like i keep feeling hate

I miss who I used to be

before he came around and ruined me

i feel like i'll never be good enough again

I was nothing but a punching bag 

and something to empty his sack...

DId you not feel bad when I begged you to stop beating me?

Did you not feel anything or did you close your eyes so you couldn't see?

Why do you deny it happens to others

but beg me to not go to the undercovers..

You've made me scared of every guy 

I start to shake and panic even if they just say hi

Was it all worth ruining me?

Are you happier than you used to be?

I hope all my happiness went to you

cause now I'm someone new

and I have no clue who..