Who am I really?
I don’t really know.
I do put up a façade, because I do what I am told
Slowly and surely, I’ve come to realize this is just a mask
I’ll smile on cue, and curtsy if I need to
But it’s time to face facts
I am Artemis, I am Athena, I am Hera, I am Demeter
All these greek goddesses are archetypes that have lived inside me forever
Demeter has been my main go to girl,
She like I, is innocent and unsure
I latch onto people when I don’t think I can endure
Artemis and Athena take me over when I’ve finally set my goals straight
I love singing, I love reading, and I love winning debates
I need to have my mind set before I begin a talk
And once I start, these goddesses help me stay strong like a rock
Though every once and a while, I feel a longing for someone
Like I need love and a husband
This no doubt is when my inner Hera comes barging on in
She pesters me on why I am alone again
Though, the thought never lasts too long
I’m always cycling through the same old song
These goddesses channel through me to help me move on
I know I wear a mask, it’s because I’m trying to be what looks best
People want somebody who seems perfect with right amount of grace
But trying to be what people want is really two faced.
I want to do what’s right for me, and then I and the world will see
That what’s under there is both light and dark,
and that removing the mask is the scariest part
People have expectations and limitations
The hardest part is deciding that it’s time to break them
There is more to me, people.
I’m not a brainwashed, always happy body.
I am Courtney, a human being, who feels everything.
I am beautiful and well rounded, it’s time I removed the mask and noticed.