WHISPERS
i want to scream and cry all day
but what would all my neighbors say
i dont want to go on living like this
all that matters in life i constantly miss
unbearable itd seem this hurt to be
either god or i must set me free
so much love i have thats never shared
they probably think ive never cared
more suffering more shame as each day stays the same
how can i feel good when i feel this lame
im sickened discusted and fed up w me
my reflection is not who i imagined itd be
i dont deserve sympathy concern or love
not even from the good lord up above
as im hating the choices ive made
i feel the will to live constatly fade
do they know how much they mean to me at the end of each lost year
will what ive done to them cause a single tear,
its hurting my children i mostly fear