I am from Starbucks and skinny girls in mansions.
I am from can I feel your hair and is it real ?
I am from standing out like black bean in a sea of white rice trying to find those who look and are similar to me.
I am from broken combs and hair ballys the smell of hair grease.
I am from Lauryn hill and Aaliyah’s soft voices and also Tupac and Busta Rhymes speaking truth.
I am from the broken home I know the the courthouse like the back of my hand.
Where at the age of 7 children services and police always wanted to talk to me.
I am from wondering what it is like to have both your mother and your father in one home showing love, care and setting good example.
I am from my grandfather taking me upstairs when I fell asleep on the couch every night.
Then every morning cooking and waking me up to the smell bacon, grits, eggs, and ham.
I am from watching my grandmother become ill and not recognizing who I am
I am from saying goodbye to those I love just to remember memories
I am from making sure my brother eats and letting him sleep with me because he is scared of the dark.
I am from making and sleeping in forts built with sheets, chairs, blankets and vacuums to hold it up
I am from taking this bus,that bus, another and still being on time.
I am from the real get it out the mud learning how to hustle with green making sure every penny was earned and not given.
I am from major athletes and also real inside and out beauty.
I am from scratches, bruises, playing rough but also loving sparkly lipgloss and painting my nails.
I am from you better be inside before the lights come on and running home as fast as I could every time they did to avoid a beating.
I am from white barbies with brown marker on their faces.
I am from jealous girls and holding my own but also learning to bite my tongue and walk away.
To see when it is worth fighting for or not.
I am from long dresses and stockings every Sunday morning singing to God’s people seeing women jumping out their seats shouting and praising the lord wondering when will the lord touch me.
I am from nights of pain getting on my knees, putting my hands together and waking up to days of new strength.