Where did you go?
I sleep in fear,
While clinging to my life.
I held your hand
When you were not there.
Where did you go?
I refuse to touch
Upon the pain I feel,
If I admit it,
It's all too real.
How do I face
Our mortality?
How do I admit I'm afraid,
But remain strong?
How do I cry now,
If I can't stop when needed to?
I poisoned my lungs
So very often.
I wanted to run,
Yet remain by your side.
I refused to
Retreat within myself.
Now that it's over,
I'm close to a meltdown,
Yet still in high alert.
So I let go
When I'm alone.
I missed you.
Where did you go?