Directionless anger and frustration without a purpose

Are surging through me when I break down.

 

Every bad memory,

Every frustration and regret,

They all surge through my mind when I break down.

 

I lose control of myself

And I say terrible things when I break down.

 

When I break down,

I just want to run.

Houses feel like cages and people like jailers

When I break down.

 

When I break down

Is the only time I wish I was normal,

That I was neurotypical.

 

When I break down

All I really want is for someone to listen to me,

To understand that I am aware that I am losing my mind.

 

I want to be alone when I break down

Because no one truly understands me when I break down.