I am kind
Years of putdowns and slanders put invisible cuts where they would not heal
Broken skin will mend again, but does the heart so easily?
Although I do not care to trust again another with my plights
I still lend a caring ear to those who need it because I understand
I understand, so I am kind
I am lost
The daze of days and nights whizzing past as I waste my life
Caught up in the whirlwind of the achievements I am expected to accomplish
There is nothing to help me stay afloat, so I am pulled under the violent current of expectation and disappointment
All those around me turning me every which way in the forest of choices so that I am disoriented and cannot find a path
My compass is nowhere to be found, so I am lost
I am lonely
A sapling trying to grow amongst the briars
Reaching out through the ever-growing darkness of my mind for comfort
Forsaken and rejected despite the millions that surround me
Well-known faces that are nothing more than wisps of smoke on the wind
Empty laughter and forced smiles
I have no one, so I am lonely
I am strong
Pushing through despite the horde of whispers assaulting me
"You'll never be good enough"
"Everyone hates you"
"Nothing will make a difference in the end. You won't make a difference in the end"
But still, I trudge through the despairing mire
Feet inching forward as the mud sucks at them
Like a yoked ox, I pull my load faithfully
Making progress no matter how small
I carry on, so I am strong