What motivates me?
Psalm 139:16
16 Your eyes saw me when I was inside the womb.
All the days ordained for me
were recorded in your scroll
before one of them came into existence.
There is no reason why ... not to give up for the easy
There is no reason why ... not to take that way out
There is no reason why ... not to live for my own pleasing
There is no reason why ... to live without a doubt
So what does motivate me? ... Who is at the helm?
Who steers this little ark ... to its final destination?
Life beyond control ... in the stormy seas
On the waves of fears ... that surge from degradation
The wind in my sails ... dragging me forward
Against my will ... some progress is made
Where for goodness sake ... is my true courage
To present myself alone ... in Him at Heaven’s gate
You seem to get the picture ... love for self is here
Fighting for existence ... in an “everlasting” battle.
I was not remade like that ... when the Lord came near
But remnants of The Fall ... are still here to meddle
Depravity has no good ... even dressed in a tuxedo
Death bones rattle day and night ... covered with attractive
No ray of light ... in the fleshy lifeless darkness
Where all things are for self ... and born defective
Sin is like a magnet ... catching souls of iron
Nothing can withstand it ... unless made of stainless
It is like a consuming fire ... burning all on the inside
as conscience wanders ... if possible towards aimless
Jan Wienen