I'm in distress
You are not
I came to you for comfort

I laid all my problems on the table
Frustration 
Anger and fatigue

You looked at me 
With pity 
For half a moment

Then began picking up each one
Each bit of my fragile self
Up off the table

You looked at them for a moment
Then you began flicking them back at me

They hit like darts 
They hit my eyes, ears, and cheeks
They punctured my fare skin

I absorbed it all back inside me
And I blew up
Pieces of me flew at you 

Then what was left of me 
Sat Silent
In disbelief. 

What had I done? 
What had you done? 
Who should apologize first?

You embarrassed me
You convinced me you don't care
You made fun of me

You compared me 
With you
I already knew you were better than me

You left me in tears
You left me enraged
You left me in ruins

But I still love you
And apologizing would be the right thing to do
But I still don't want to

I don't want to apologize for something you started

I don't want to be the bigger person

I want you to be sorry

I want you to feel like this

I want you to beg me for forgiveness

You won't 
I can feel it
You won't 
I will apologize
You won't 

You did nothing wrong
I'm the emotional one

WHY DON'T YOU UNDERSTAND?

I'm still in distress
I'm still frustrated
I'm still angry and
I'm still tired

You are not