What I Want


I don't know what I'm going to be or where I'm going to end up or what I'm going to see

I wish I could have all the answers, but I don't, and I never will

I say if I run a little harder, make my stomach a little smaller, make my GPA a little higher

Then life will be better, then I'll be better

But I know the lies that I tell myself will get me no where but self destruction 

I've already been there, and I don't want to go back

When I set goals for myself

When I live like I have something worth living for, everything changes

I sit in an urban high school and listen to people scream through the hallways and dispresect teachers like they have nothing to lose

That's not who I want to be. 

I want to be successful and happy and free to do what brings so much joy to me

I want to preach the Good News

I want to help people

I want to change the world

I want to serve God, others, and a church

I want to lead people to hope and help them to find a better way

I don't want to be a pastor to change my life

I want to be a pastor to do good for every son and daughter of God and change the lives of everyone around me



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