What I Liked

I liked it when you told me I would be your princess on a pedestal

I liked it when you told me life with you was never dull

I liked it when you told me I was perfect

I liked that I was the one you picked

I liked it when you showered me with gifts

I liked how it felt we were moving so swift

I liked,

I liked,

I liked it all

I liked it so much, I saw through all your flaws

But my god, there were so many

Yet I wanted you so badly

Because you wanted me

You became all that I could see

I thought I was living in a dream

And ignored the reality

When I finally saw who you were-

Who you are-

It was impossible to escape your bars

I pushed my own happiness to the fringes

I buried myself in excuses

I became a liar, but only to myself

Too weak to admit I needed help

I destroyed myself trying to love you

Forced myself to become what you valued

But I couldn’t,

I couldn’t be who you wanted me to be

I should have had the sense to flee

But as you keep telling me,

I would never love myself enough to leave

So I stay

And I wait

For what, I don’t know

Until you get bored, I suppose

For now, I’ve discovered what I don’t care for

And I don’t like it when you treat me like décor

I don’t like it when you say you want to be my first,

Grow my thirst,

And then treat me like a curse

I don’t like it when you tell me to, “Get over it, Baby Girl”

I don’t like going down on your black hole

I don’t like when you leave me hanging on the shelf

I don’t like it when you make me hate myself

I don’t like it when I’m with you

So I guess there is nothing else to do

But to leave you 

This poem is about: 
Me

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